Another day clean and I'm grateful that even though sometimes I still find myself waking up from dreams of being high or sometimes I see people I use to get high with, I no longer have an urge to use again. I thank God that the urge to use is gone because of His grace, the help I received and I remember the years of fighting and loosing my battle with addictions, time away from my daughter and other family members and the shame from the feeling of "Man I messed up again"